Re-Calibrating Myself

I’ve been inactive on this site for awhile. No excuses, just haven’t done what I said I was going to and haven’t done all I need to keep myself accountable for my writing habits. I’ve been watching a lot of things lately, trying to develop myself a little bit on a personal level, and I think there’s a few things I can do to help re-calibrate myself to find positives in the world, but also to find positives in myself. That’s something I’ve struggled with a great deal.

Since my last entry I have embarked on a new career, with one of the largest banks in the United States. This bank is about developing their talent and really doing all they can to keep people in their employ for long stretches of time. I’ve been a lot of places where they tout that they promote within, and all of that, and never see anything resembling those promises. I’ve seen 4 promotions and 2 other internal job listings for positions higher up the ladder in the 2 and a half weeks I’ve been with the bank. It doesn’t hurt that the bank has also treated me well as a customer for the nearly 9 years I’ve been with them. It’s finally beginning to feel like I’ve found a place I can grow into a career. Which took me longer than I would have liked.

As I’ve been going through my training, some led by a facilitator and some done via web based modules I’ve had some free time between lessons. Sometimes I’ve used that time to get more well versed in product knowledge, I can’t suggest a savings account to a customer if I don’t know anything about savings accounts. The rest of that time has been used viewing TED talks, which can provide me with some insights that I didn’t really have before. Now, I came across one I saw at a previous job, one I really enjoyed, from Shawn Achor. Having seen this one before, it reminded me of a habit I had gotten into at that previous job, and saw results from. Though that job just felt wrong to me, the process and habits mentioned in this video did work. As such, I’m here, going to use this site to re-start that habit, to re-calibrate myself, and become more positive and ideally more successful in my new career.

Since I get paid on Fridays for the foreseeable future, I will likely begin actually adding my journaling, my gratefulness, and acts of kindness on Sunday, allowing me to actually devote time to getting them done on Saturday. I think carrying a small notebook with me, writing things down as they happen will actually make it easier to recall things that I’ve done and would like to add to the journaling here. I think I also want to have a hard copy as well, so I can write it myself, make it even more committed to memory. I intend to do that for at least 21 days, but ultimately I hope to do it much longer than that. I want to make it a regular thing for a long time, to keep myself in a better frame of mind and help increase my personal success.

The other thing I hope to do on a daily basis is follow my weight loss plan, which partially fits in with the journaling I intend to do. Ultimately, if there’s not a concrete goal, it’s hard to stay focused. Even with a concrete goal, it can be hard to stay focused. I know I’ve lost focus many times, I still keep coming back to attempting to reach them, but because I let it slide I end up a little farther away every time I start over. So, I’m hoping to instill a little discipline with the journaling and exercise, and just trying to become a better person overall. If you want to follow along, great, I’d love to hear some feedback, tips and such. If you don’t, that’s okay too. This isn’t really about gathering regular readers, it’s about re-calibrating me to a better frame of mind and finding a better physical me.